Hey there lovelies.
It's definitely been a while since I wrote a piece of my thoughts here.
So, since I've been really bored these days, here I go..
Maybe it's because I'm overly bored that made my mind think quite deeply about what has happened, is happening and will happen in my life. As we all know, this year's close to an end and all that's left are memories of how we spent 2010. I can truly say that God has done tremendous changes in my life, making me aware of things that I've been ignorant to all this while. It has really been an eye-opener. Through the lessons I learnt, I now understand how important it is to submit to my parents, leaders and friends. Their advice and encouragement are as rich and precious as gold (or maybe just silver, joke! :p) I know that there's still a loooooong way for me to go in life and I know deeeep down that I'm so not ready for it. But all I can really depend on is just God's grace and mercy. As long as I'm obedient and submisive to Him, I believe that He will carry me through. No matter what circumstance it may be.
Life for me in school from next year onwards is gonna be friggin' tough. I know that, you know that, we all know that. That's why I'm really counting on my determination to make my parents proud as well as my determination to maintain my academic achievement and hopefully, hopefully.. I will survive! As many many many other students did :)
On a shorter note, I'm not as braniac as you think I am! I'm superbly lazy. I can slack like crazy if there's no one pushing me. I have no.discipline.at.all. I'm seriously serious. Whenever I think about that, I get really really scared. Do you know that throughout the week before pmr I had absolutely no appetite to eat even my most fav food? I even felt nauseatic almost everyday! God knows how torturing that felt. I know some people say it's normal and yadayada.. But seriously speaking, I've never ever, ever felt this scared before. Well, especially for my BM paper which is always on the first day. The thought of "what on earth are you gonna crap on your exam paper if the essay questions are weird and you have no idea about it at all?!" Whenever I think about that, I totally freak out. But for one very important thing that sustained me and I wanna thank God for, is my mom's encouragement. Guess what? She even bought me starbuck's choc cream chip the night before my BM paper! How sweet right? :D Sadly, I couldn't drink it :( Anyways, back to my point. Without her constant "Aiyo don't think about that la. Treat it as if it's just another school exam, all this while also you not liddat one.", love and prayers, I might have suffered an emotional breakdown or smthing. Nah, over-exaggerating. Not forgetting my dad, sissy, granny, friends and everyone else who have been upholding me in prayer :) By His Grace, I conquered the first hurdle in highschool- pmr! Ah, don't even try to think about the next. Just hoping that everyday God will make me extraa hardworking and disciplined to do my revision and not face the teevie and comp all the time.. Or even think about shopping so much. (I know my mom will be so happy to read this) Oh well, I've rambled enough. Happy holidays in advance to all of you!! I'll be away for a month plus so hopefully I'll still keep this blog alive. If not, you can always catch me on fbook or twitter :D
I would also like to end this post with my dream cake...
presenting...
BR'S ICECREAM CAKE!! lovelovelove!!
you know what I'm hinting don't you? ;)
Till then!
xx